Fresh Beginnings

I've had this blog for a few weeks now and have been waiting for just the right moment to start typing away on this keyboard for my first blog. I kept waiting for something inspirational, something brilliant, something worth reading about. Nothing has came yet and I'm beginning to get very anxious to start up my blogspot. I don't know why I feel the need to have a blog. I already have a facebook account and a myspace account, which both keep me very occupied. I suppose there's something therapeutic about writing. The rythm of the keys going clickity clack and my mind traveling to many different spots all at once all to form words for my fingers to type.
I guess I should really write about something thought provoking, seeing as this is my first blog, and what a waste it would be to have my very first blog be rambling non-sense. :-)

I've had an interesting few weeks. I'm officially a college drop out. I know, how lame. Though, as much as I am heart broken that I am not at ACU with the people that I love and attempting to make something of my life, I am a little excited to see how God is working in my life right now. I'm anxious to see the plan He has for me this semester and through the summer. I'm beginning to see a little good come from all of this heartache. I've recently been on the phone doing a sort of interview with a family who has a nanny position open in The Woodlands, near Houston. This family sounds super great and it seems like a good opportunity for me to serve a loving family as well as to grow in my own personal ways. Hopefully I will find out more from this family soon.
I have been tested what seems to be a lot over the course of this new year and it's only February. From having to move away from ACU, cancelling my mission work in New Zealand, my sickley grandmother, and the death of my sweet baby cousin Baylee. Sometimes, especially in moments like these, I wonder why I continue to believe the things I believe. How can someone so great throw such awful things all in one month to me?I had in mind to serve our great God this semester with a team of awesome college kids at Southern Hills. I had in mind to serve our great God this summer in New Zealand. I often wonder why I am not being allowed to serve in those places. I tried so hard to find something pleasing to Him and to go at it with all of myself. To be dedicated to a task that would glorify Him instead of something for my own pleasure. I failed miserably and now I feel miserable.
Things are beginning to shape up a bit. I'm praying hard that I will land this nanny job. I'm praying hard that this is where He wants me to be and that He will reveal His good and perfect plan to me. All I want is to be a servant. I find myself constantly asking Him to show me what He wants of me.

"And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."1 Cor. 10:13